Warm scarfs and good hearts.

Where are the do-ers? The dreamers. The makers of the world that was once filled with people who reached out and tried to improve something ahead of them. Life in itself isn't the way we make it out to be. Sometimes all you need is a cup of hot tea and to pour out the emotions inside to feel as if someone is finally listening to you after all these years. That someone has always been there. They never left, you did. Its funny how He works like this....you run and kick and scream  when He wraps His arms around you but all you want is to feel His embrace. A warm snug tight pull into his chest. A deep rustic smell of fresh rain. New beginnings. Soft flannel and scruffy beards. Life filled with big knit scarfs and sweaters, hugs and the ability to feel a comfort like no one has ever given you. PUMPKIN. I was never a believer in this life. This life where He is the center of every move, every thought, the rain wasn't rain, but a renewal. This life was impossible for me to achieve. I figured if it didn't benefit me, it was out of the deck. That card could no longer be played. I was wrong. I believe in new beginnings. That old saying...you know. Out of the dust or whatever. Thats what I "believed." Now. Right now, today I believe that in a new way. Dirty, ugly roots have been planted and in this life rain will come and I am sure as hell not going to burry myself in the mud and roll over. The ability to change. The ability to DO SOMETHING. Not sit on my ass and take a class for 3 hours every night or produce As or Bs or even Cs but to MAKE A CHANGE. Build a relationship. Turn the head of someone who thought you couldn't do it. Ya, that kind of victory in the sense of new ideas and ways to benefit the world around us. Not encourage laziness, but give someone that extra little push they needed. An add shot in a latte. A pat on the back. A thank you note. A smile and a hug just because they look like they need it. A compliment. Not the plastic....omg! i love your jacket!" but...hey, i think you are pretty awesome. The elimination of the fear of being rejected. Being able to jump in full force and feel the way God moves you. Moves you toward new ideas and movements to being joy. I have found a certain peace in my life when I allow myself to express the big ideas I have. A conversation with an old man while I steam the milk for his wife's latte...a smile. The weather. The difference of California and Nashville. I love this place. I love this peace.