Random 2:47am Rambles...
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Definition of RAMBLE
intransitive verb
1
a : to move aimlessly from place to placeb : to explore idly
2
: to talk or write in a desultory or long-winded wandering
3
: to grow or extend irregularly
So, i am offically a rambler...Things are quite average and the bigger things in life don't scare me anymore. I am accepting forgiveness for the stupid things i have done and moving forward. Some parts of my past still haunt me, but growth is what i have been working on. Life in itself would be so terrible if we did not learn to forgive. This is hard for me and i can pretty much say it would be hard for anyone. I have matured and have said goodbye to some people who have caused me to slip. Know that in this blogg, i write for myself, i write because it is an expression, not because i want a pitty party. please dont throw me one. I love the fact i have two loving parents and one amazing big sister that i love very much, i am blessed beyond measures, but still i believe so deep with in me that there is more to life. I feel like cringing, i cant sit still, i want to do something worth while, i want some part in something important. I long for this so much, i cant wait to get on the plane to India and i cant wait to make an impact. Things i love, like sitting outside on my rocking chair are all grand and such, but there is so much going on in this world. i find myself praying for the impossible, which makes me giggle at times because i used to be one to think it not to be true. Life is what you make it and i want to paint the blank canvas of life in God's palette of colors, i want to be the David in this Goliath of a word...You may laugh at me, but i can do it. I can make a difference and i think that is what we are here for. In Matthew Chapter 22:v37 Jesus talks about the greatest commandments and that is to love God and love others. Who cares if you are Catholic, Lutheran, Baptist, ect. we all should strive to love each other, and frankly i think Jesus would be pissed if He saw how much we fight. Yes, i go to a Lutheran school, and i do not believe every little thing with their theology, but i was raised in the Friends (Quaker) Church, The book they teach from is the same, and the God they serve is the same. I don't really think it matters. The message is the point right? Recently, i was in a dark time with the church and i struggled to even show up. Although i am still upset completely, i think that the message is what is important. Yes, i am still bitter, and i think time can only heal that. God had some twisted plan behind it all, although i am still not sure what that was. Anywho, sorry about the lack of witty comments, and organazation in general with this post. As you can tell i am quite passionate about what i write and its basically just a venting session as of now. Well, on a lighter note, i miss my sister for she is in Wisconsin. Never thought i would say that one, but being a temporary only child sucks..well, i am off to finish my CS Lewis book (NOT NARNIA) that i have been working on for a while, i had read it before, but the funny thing about CS Lewis is....one time is never enough, he is so wise. Certain parts of my faith grow when i read his books, for he knew his Bible shit.
Alright,
I am off to accompany my hot tea,
Mumford and Sons melodies,
and CS Lewis novel.
Toodle Loo.
