TOMS, one day with out shoes, and i got asked to put on my shoes at my CHRISTIAN school, so upsetting. Trying to spread awareness for something that matters, unlike the millions of inspiring videos they show
in chapel...this accually got people
curious. I told them exactly why i wasnt wearing shoes. And not to sound like a bad ass, but i kept them off, I felt it was worth getting in trouble for if i did...and i didn't get caught 
again... Funny, right? You would think something like that would be a positive thing to do, a stand for what you believe in...well, according to them it is not. This really bothered me. And sadly, I saw it coming, cause being barefoot is "out of dress code" certain rules in life are worth breaking. Yes, i got called a hippie (thats nothing new) and a hipster, which i don't even completely understand that phrase anyway, but it really makes me angry when people call me that. Almost as angry when im almost done with a purse and i have to wind a new bobbin. So frustrating, well i got my sewing machine fixed, a lighter note. And plans for India are coming into reality...honestly... I am so excited to serve...in a big way, not necessarily more important way, but i want to step out of my comfort zone... (if i have one,which i don't really think i do.) Sadly, my drive to paint lately has been less than normal, but i think it is because i have become so involved with my love of fabric. which leads me to believe i should look into some career in that area or maybe an art teacher? i loved/love my art teacher in middle school and the private one i have now, shes like another big sister, but older than kristina. oh kristina, i love my sister dearly, she heard what happened after i made my own prom dress, things didn't work out and she bought me a pillow pet. i was so extremely happy......
...she wrote a little note and it made my week, along with spending time with my Bible study girls watching Tangled :) That is a great movie by the way. Sorry this post is super random and there is no reason or rhyme in where i connect all of these thoughts, but that is sometimes how life is. I think sometimes its best to be in chaos. It for sure makes me think, and i am not one to think inside a box. I doubt myself often, art school scares me, but i can't wait. I need direction, but i want to roam free. There are several ideas that i can not express via typing or even painting, i must just think. Sit and think, not a normal concept for most teens. I do some quality thinking when i am in the bath. Thinking is a healthy thing i believe. well, i hope. i love the banjo. and i love God, and His creations. I love only having one year of high school left, but at the same time, i dont want to grow up. I think the world is so beautiful and i want to see all of it. Also i have come to this completely epic conclusion... sometimes we need to pray on our knees...i do this every once and a while. praying on your knees is different than regular prayer to me, not in the sense that it is more important, but i think it reminds me that I am a child of God, cause when i was little i would pray on my knees. I think it is refreshing. God listens to your prayers even if you are upside down. that is all for now.
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