anyone want some spare change?

You change your clothes on a daily basis. Your president promises change (hahahaha...joke.) You change your hair style. The leaves change in the fall (not in Southern Cali...but roll with me on this one) The date changes, the trends change, the weather changes, people change, and change is scarier than scary. Yes, i have been told that change is good. But im not a huge fan unless this is a big change. A small quiet change that awakes you and reminds you who you really truly care about. Yah, its weird, but you know what? Its gunna happen, just like the weather changes. And if you are an insomniac like myself, you can watch the moon change to the sun...you can sometimes even see the dew form on a fresh flower. Its all so slow, but in life, change comes FAST...like BAM! The change i am experiencing is weird, but i think it is going to be ok. Yes, i have already cried hysterically and asked why a million times, but i think it will be ok. Ok, just that. There is a small part of me that is still bitter, but it is a nice healing process. A nice form of rehab i guess. Therapy is a good word. I need to sit back and remember that change can become positive, because all things work for the greater good of those who love HIM. And that is that, and i swear i will love God and love others, because even though this change is terrible, He has something good in store. Now, heres the fun part, guide me! yep, God here it is show me where you want me, either in India for a year? Seattle? Tennessee? Santa Barbara? where? tell me please? that would make my life .5% less stressful. Thanks. But you know if you don't tell me, then i am ok with that because i know that you have it all figured out and i can MAYBE sleep tonight knowing that.

-a very very frazzled kimberly kazarian.